Exposures
It was the same field of glaciers we’d always hike up to, our packs stuffed with familiar necessities: beer, bacon, steaks, more beer, mild hallucinogens (that was only once, stewed into hamburger helper, and it would have been rude to say no and after all, it smelled delicious, and that was the night I spotted a passing fleet of UFOs).
All things sure to attract good times and ravenous, post-hibernatory black bears alike (rocket scientists, the lot of us).
We’d hike to the top of the mountain in the heat of summer, set up camp at the base of the glacier and watch as building-sized chunks of ice would crack free of the mother like the blow from a cannon and tumble down the snowfield, ass over teakettle, to rest at the top of where the rock began.
We’d stomp up higher through knee-deep snow to where we could crawl under the lip of the ice and feel its ancient drips on our backs. Then in the midday sun we’d sometimes strip down, sometimes not, and boot-glissade down the steep, smooth snow, soak hot, stifled feet in rushing creeks, scramble atop giant boulders to take in the view of a trio of brilliantly clear emerald lakes.
We’d curl up, backs against trunks and down sleeping bags cinched up around our noses in front of a fire, experience-drunk and giggling, convinced that everything we ate — crackers with peanut butter, instant oatmeal, tuna from the can, mr. noodle — was surely the finest fare in the whole province that night.
On one trip the film advancer of my point-and-shoot broke. Unknowing, I kept snapping. When the pictures came back there was accidental art: five exposures on one frame, the print just rediscovered.
- Left of centre there’s a back view of me, hair freshly cropped to the skull for the first and last time, peeling off sweaty clothes at the lakeshore;
- At the centre is me moments later, crouched at the water's edge and about to jump in (followed by screaming, and flailing, and chattering back to shore);
- To the right edge are friends Matt and Daphne, resting halfway up the trail;
- Just to the left of Daphne’s head, faintly, is Justin glissading down the snowfield; and
- To the far left is all four of us standing in front of the glacier cliff, which runs the breadth of the shot.
We didn’t have much money. We lived in illegal basement apartments. We were living though, so vividly and so freely that I can’t help but smile to remember it.
Now, we’re all parents. Daphne and Matt are visiting from Vancouver and they stayed here for a couple of days, gave us (particularly Evan) ample opportunity to fall head-over-heels in love with their girl Sadie.
There’s an immense, chewy satisfaction about making this transformation alongside dear friends who were there when we were all just us. We watch each other as mothers and fathers, grinning widely, content to let our kids be cooler than us, tipsy in the thick of toddler adoration.
Indescribably happy times ten years ago, and indescribably happy times two days ago. Life explosions and upheaval and flotsam resettling in between the two, changing everything, but no one minding a bit that a cheerio-littered floor lies at our feet rather than emerald water that sparkles with glass-like brilliance.



Reader Comments (34)
I do love to reminisce about the "old days" and will one day share some wild stories with my daughters. When they are grown. ha!
(Not nearly enough of my friends have become parents yet, and I've become that annoying breeder who asks too often "are you thinking of having kids?" or "when are you going to have kids?"--I know I'm craving more of those special moments rolled up and stacked upon the shorthand of long-term friendships.)
much love,ashley
Here's hoping we get out there soon.
The joys of becoming parents, and having good friends to share it with. Unfortunately, John's friends all have older kids- the downfall to marrying someone so much older. And as for mine, well as soon as I seem to make good friends and have children, we end up moving someplace else... oh well. At least we will stay put for now :-)
i am moving to a place where friends, much like yours, with history you share, are moving as well. they just arrive at our destination in WA. They just blissfully informed me they are having a baby.
This is what i have been looking forward to for years. To experience this newness with those i have such oldness with. it is so powerful and....such fun.
mb
:)
Since we're moved away from Vancouver we're missing out on getting together with old friends in new stages (although my best friends are a bit behind us on the kids-front) - but one of the blessings of having a kid is how easy it is to meet new friends. We're loving camping trips with other families and just playing in the park...
Besides, being out-of-doors makes everything taste fabulous, remember?
Sometimes it's nice to grow up, isn't it? I miss the newness somedays, but I missed having a doughy familiarity back then.
Hehehe...
So often in life, hindsight is 20/20. An appreciation and love for things past. A blessed few live and breathe in the here and now, and appreciate it in the moment.
Mama, you are one such person. Good for you.
*raising my ice cold Yuengling*
-- but I was only slightly less a square.
chewy! that one make me smile.
Thank you for the post Kate, it is of course, one of my favs. :-) Gotta go, with each post/comment I read/write come the tears and since I'm at work I'd like to avoid that...
love, daph xox